too lazy to style any of this. you get links for now. oldest to newest

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really old cringey wip homepage! from 2023

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also old, kinda cringe, but i love how its so unhinged.

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late 2023 type shit, used a CreateBlog layout from 2006, colorful and gives 2000s n shi, i still quite like it actually

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Finally didnt use a layout and made something kind of decent that never got finished.

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summer 2024 and made this cutesy and kinda cunty thing. tried out making my own layout and i was so proud!

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made a different version of the aforementioned with a Near and cozy light blue theme. very unfinished. still cute tho

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final different version of fart.html and the prototype for what became my index/homepage for a WHOLE YEAR!!

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what became my homepage for a whole year! my beloved self crafted layout and style. i was so proud. still am amused by this page to this day.

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I got bored of my homepage eventually, and wanted to push myself further, and create something even better. and also, my site has been growing with me. I'm in a different era than I was when i made my longest lasting homepage. anyways, I made this, and it didnt pique my interest much. I needed to dig deeper, create something more ME again. this has been a hard task, even 6-8 months after overhauling my site. this page looks fun tho.

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just a different version of cjlosthismarbles. no animated gifs n stuff

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Experimented with a cutesy vibe, because i do like cutesy pink things too!! STILL didnt feel exactly right though. I had to dig even deeper; create another homepage!! its cute tho!!

I made a page after this that i kept running into problems with when coding it, so I made this next thing. I was trying to find it for this page, but i realized i deleted it to save website space.

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this next thing! I LOVE THIS PAGE SO MUCH. its so cunty and 2000s. so unapologetically trashy old internet mcbling. add me on myspace, mofo. i.... MAY like mello and matt.... okay anyways though, this site felt SO ME. for like, a month. then, it suddenly didnt feel right again. even though i loved it so much! I just hated being trapped into one theme! so, i made another site, about another facet of CJ.

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I really cant explain the vibe for this. unhinged 90s-2000s internet thing vibe idk. with a splash of artistically sporadic eccentricity. iunno, but its cool. just didnt feel right again!!

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and finally, my most recent page. I love this. its not the usual CJ thing tho: a tad bit fancy, with more yellowy, melancholic graphics. I wanted it to look like a beautiful mello and matt blinkie from the 2000s tho, so here we are! i also pixelated a few images on purpose. I wanted to make it partially crunchy, like a 90s-2000s video game.

I'm planning on making different themes of "feelingsilly.html". I really, REALLY cannot shove myself into one aesthetic. I dont know how people on here keep a consistent style, and create something that feels just right for a long time. I wanna be 70s punk, while being 80s arcade, while being 90s silly web design, while being 2000s scene queen, while making something cutesy and pink, while making something beautiful and delicate like Michelangelo's statue David, while making something dark/light academia, while making something super unhinged and colorful, while making a cozy cottagecore vibe or an enchanting fantasy world. I CANT CHOOSE!!! its so hard. sorry for so much chaos in making this site! I havent even finished making functional pages, like an art page! i havent even linked every page on the sitenavs! its like I gave my website ADHD. its a reflection of me. figuring out my identity is really hard.... anyways. didnt mean to make this an impromptu blog entry. Ill put this page somewhere on feelingsilly.

Last updated Oct. 26th 2025